Never Walked in my Shoes!

Never walked in my shoes, why this statement because Im yet to start believing that im anything from ordinary. I have been through things that only others have read about in the books based up on a life of mental and physical abuse but yet here I stand. I wake up every day thinking that God does want me around and yes he has a plan for me thats the only way I see it now because with all the trials and tribulations that I have been through whilst growing up and I am still here Its somewhat amazing. Who have ever read the book "UGLY" by Constance Briscoe. When I picked that book up to read I found myself crying, crying because of sorrow for what she went through and also crying because some of her experiences mirrored mine, the only difference is that it wasn't inflicted upon by my mother...mum she always wanted the best for me last penny you took and sent me to achieve but pity you sent me to live with the wrong person. They say forgive and forget...but why can't I do that? When I left that life I felt free. Free again to finally be me. Growing up was what I had to do quickly, head always bent over in a book just getting away from my world and exploring someone elses world for a change. Found courage or shall I say pushed to the brink at 19 yes 17/03/2005 the day of my birthday, found some Angels that night two that I am currently living with. It took me a while to know that I wasnt "ugly", "Stupid" or "a waste of space". Now I know Im stronger than you will ever imagine emotionally and physically. I say to God "hey I should go to heaven because I have already serve my time in Hell" "Some people say I have attitude- maybe I do. But I think you have to believe in youself when no one else does- that makes you a winner right there" Venus Williams